for you.

[Simply because I don't tell you enough]

It is so easy to get caught in all the things that don't really matter, and
christmas definitely is a time where we remember what means the most to us.
Tonight hanging out with my best girlfriend reminded me of that.
Especially of that feeling you get when you are beyond content, you're simply happy.
Even if your life isn't perfect and you may not have everything you want.
You still have enough to realise you are lucky and not to sweat the small stuff.
My lucky star is this girl.
She is one of the most best and beautiful people I know hence why she gets that title.
I appreciate all our walks and talks and everything in between.
We have known each other for almost a year now,
And even after such a short period of time I feel like we have known each other always.
I know, even now, she will never walk out and we will make and share memories for years to come.
I wouldn't change her one bit, we share so much in common and yet she still opens my mind and heart to new and exciting things all the time.
Our adventures will change and we will grow with them.
I'm excited to watch her grow as a person, to be married one day and be a mother.
I cannot put into words how much this single soul means to me and how much she saved me.
Renee my darling you are a treasure, please never change!
Love you face!!x

clarification

I don't hate you. Or blame you.
I saved all of those things for myself.
To consume myself with so you weren't tainted.
Don't you see?
No need to feel guilt. Or regret.
Why? When someone else is happy to pick up the pieces.
Just a silly little girl caught up in your pretty little lies.
Shattered trust. Dreams. Such a waste of time.
You are beautiful. Truly you are.
(Please)
Remember actions speak louder than words.
Keep your promises.
Walking away wasn't easy, but neither was staying in that limbo.
I appreciate your friendship, that is where it must remain.
~skyelouise

I can't swim..

'We're in the same boat' ? I don't think so. You can drill holes in the bottom
of yours but I'm out before you start rocking it. Ill get my own boat and
paddling like fuck to shore. I'm not going to let you drown my anymore.
~skyelouise.

[Its tiring trying to swim towards something that never seems to be getting any closer]

tegan and sara

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thoughts at..

1030pm

To be absolutely consumed by love,
to let every part of you open up to possibility
and feel the purity of another person's soul as it meets yours,
would be a mighty exciting adventure. ~ skyelouise.

Tomorrow's do to list.
1. Commence french lessons.
2. Realise I've forgotten everything.
3. Restart french lessons.
4. Put french dictionary on christmas list
4.5. Search words on google..accidentally end up on tumblr searching
pretty pictures and quotes.
5. Feed housemates fudge to reduce the risk of eating it all myself
6. Gym; work extra hard from eating too much fudge.
7. Shower and bed.
8. Repeat steps 1 and 7 the following day.

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ramblings

[more than you'll appreciate]

The negatives. The pain. They always seem to be so much easier to write about than love, and happiness. Why are we so caught up with the bad that we over look the good? Over analyse the good to pick out the bad and the unsure.
Pain is so easy to relate with, we all suffer at some point in our lives. We accept that we deserve it for some reason [something we did, something we said]
But we also laugh and love yet its harder to express [for me] those emotions.
Its nothing to be ashamed of, its to be celebrated. The reason for birthdays, valentines day and weddings. Yet we don't really flaunt our happiness, afraid of upsetting those who are not as happy. Why do we allow our negatives to consume our positives. Why is it ok to bring down other that are happy?
I'm embarrassed to express lust, happiness and such. Is it fear or rejection? Something that holds each and everyone of us back at some point.
The fear of pain, yet we freely let ourselves feel pain when we are too afraid [afraid to fall or hurt another] We leave ourselves wondering 'what if', feeling lonely and missing out. Regret. A horrible and often avoidable situation.. 
Another concern of my fear [social dynamics] they kill almost any freedom one wants to feel and embrace. Our worlds social dynamics are fucked, [fucked!]. I wish we could all say and do the things that are plastered over our blog's, tumblr, facebook and instagram. The social media to express and in turn be scrutinized over. The inspirational quotes and images that make us remember somewhere [deep down] to live our lives...
But do we actually act on this? Money, Courage, Motivation all inhibit us. 
I know I haven't , i shouldn't be so scared to say what i feel and what i want. Why follow the 'rules'? Why let the stigma of society consume us? Why?
Because humans are set in their ways, they are weak, they want to conform to majority. Social stigma will always stick, no matter how much we try and change the world's way of thinking. Why would you follow a minority with the chance of being outcast when its easier to follow suit of everyone else, even if its wrong. 
~ We can't say something without sounding too eager, if we do that you wont be interested, its the thrill of the chase isn't it? always playing games.
We cant be in love with the same sex, that's disgusting and not natural. 
You cant suffer from anything, you cant be sad, otherwise you are crazy or suicidal. you're weak!
Don't tell anyone anything, they will judge you.
You're not perfect, [no one is perfect] but you need to try and be perfect without acting like your are...
You can't live and love or you'll be branded a whore.
You can say how you feel about anything or you'll be a bitch. 
If you don't say anything you have no personality or thoughts of your own.
[so many words, so many meanings]
the worst labelling often used by those who feel threatened.
~You cant be friends with boys or you're a flirt. 
You can't have time to yourself; you're antisocial and have no friends. 
One thing after another. Life is hard.
The day we can be accepted for who we are the world will probably fall apart.
However we should embrace our positives and be able to share them not hide away from life.
Learn not to fear rejection and take that leap of faith.
One day? Maybe one day.

we meet again..

Again.

Another night the pillow cases are dampened by sorrow,

The endless white noise of emptiness and hopelessness 

from deep inside her heart.

Complete darkness consumes her.

When will it get easier?

Where does she go wrong?

Why? Why? Why?

The great want and need for it to stop.

To be content with her reality.

Stop dreaming pointless dreams,

Wash him from her mind.

No more chances.

No one last time.

Who is she kidding, when will she finally say no?

Now? For how long?

She is weak.

Pathetic.

It will never be good enough,

Will she ever good enough?

We accept the love we believe we deserve,

Little, imperfect, forgotten, 2nd best?

No. None.

another day

its done.
its over.
finally over.
one chapter ends for another to begin.
what else shall it contain.
what story will it tell.
a void that needs to be filled.
no distractions now.
those thoughts and feelings pushed away for so long
it rushes in my blood
makes my skin tingle
'i think im ready to let you get under my skin' - kimbra

kimbra

twice as cute

one of my most favourite blogs, a friend from uni showed it to me once a upon a time.
i almost forgot all about this splendid little site. it is full of baking and decorating tips as well as some amazing recipes!

thank you ~ http://www.glorioustreats.com

~ Baked Mini Cake Doughnuts ~

1 1/4 cups all purpose flour

1/2 cup granulated sugar

1 1/4 teaspoons baking powder

1/2 teaspoon salt

1/2 cup buttermilk (or 1/2 cup milk plus 1 teaspoon white vinegar, mixed and set aside)

1 egg, lightly beaten

1 1/2 Tablespoons butter, melted

Preheat oven to 425*F.  Spray mini doughnut pan with nonstick cooking spray.

In a large mixing bowl, sift together (or stir with a whisk), flour, sugar, baking powder and salt.

Add buttermilk, egg, and butter and stir until just combined.

Scoop batter into a large ziplock style bag, or large piping bag and snip off the tip to fill doughnut pan.

Fill each doughnut cup approximately 1/3- 1/2 full.  The batter will rise quite a bit during baking.

Bake 4-6 minutes or until the top of the doughnuts spring back when touched.

 Cool in pan 1-2 minutes, then transfer to a cooling rack.

Makes 36 mini doughnuts.

Recipe Source- Adjusted slightly from the Wilton mini doughnut pan

~ Maple Glaze ~

1 cup powdered sugar

2 Tablespoons milk

1 to 1 1/2 teaspoons pure maple extract (as desired)

*For a vanilla glaze, simple substitute 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract in place of the maple extract

In a small bowl, stir together sugar, milk and extract until sugar is completely dissolved.  Use immediately to glaze doughnuts.  Dip each doughnut in glaze, then set on a plate or baking sheet and top with sprinkles of your choice.

recipe number one

just one of the MANY recipes i will adding to this blog,
i love wandering aimlessly through the cyber wonderland... 
~ of my favourite website (frankie) and fellow bloggers ~
...to stumble onto the glorious words with even more glorious images of... food!

i am determined to make as many of these scrumptious creations as i can as soon as possible.
be warned friends and family, i aim to shower you in edible treats as soon as my cookery budget reaches it quota!

This little gem of chocolately goodness comes from
~ http://www.reclaimingprovincial.com

Homemade Nutella

(slightly adapted from The Kitchn)

makes: 6 ounces

• 1 cup of hazelnuts, peeled and toasted
• 1/4 cup of unsweetened cocoa powder (high quality cocoa powder is key! I used Valrhona)
• 1/2 cup of powdered sugar
• 3/4 tsp vanilla extract
• 1/4 tsp kosher salt
• 4 tbsp coconut oil

Place hazelnuts in the food processor and blend continuously until a smooth butter forms (around 3 minutes). Add the rest of the ingredients and continue blending until the mixture is smooth and creamy.

oh lark

pretty, precious little things ~
to make you smile, decorate your house and or to help celebrate a loved one.

http://www.larkmade.com.au

Matchbox Twenty

~ A

her name with remain blind

she will creep into your heart

into your soul

she will decorate in colour

and pretty things

she will warm your body

inside out

she plants roots in your soul

she spreads her branches

she blooms in full

she will never let your words

fall on deaf ears

she is waiting with wine and cheese

a painted smile to disguise her pain

she is the loveliest of flowers

she is the kindest spirits

she is not perfect

she hides her real desires

she lets people hurt her

her thoughts are always full of hope

that often lets her down

she is broken from time to time

and forgets all the best parts of her

she pushes them down

out of reach

she turns to you

and holds back the tears

she deserves the best life can give

yet she is being tested

she is being shown what to be wary of

what to stay away from

she is being prepared for happiness

even if she has shy'd away from it

in the past

her friends will hold her heart

dry her tears

mend shattered hopes and dreams

i will be there for her

i will be her ray of sunshine

her rainbow after the storm

the glue she needs to hold it together

and the hope she needs to be reminded of

she can let it all go

she can be looked after

cared for and loved

she is the strongest person i know

she is my beautiful soul.

remember that..

please. 

wanting..

..what i cant have [like always]

but what do i want?
really.. deep down?
to be wanted.
to have someone to share my time with.
to cuddle.
to have that smell, his smell.
to be able to give my love to him.
to not be afraid.
to say i love you and mean it.
to hear i love you and trust it.
to make memories.
to take photos.
to have picnics.
to make love.
to hold him tight.
to read with.
to drink tea with.
to call him mine.
to have butterflies in my stomach.
to have my heart skip a beat.
to have him say goodnight,
and good morning the next day.
to be thought of.
to be missed.
to be loved.
to not feel lonely any more..

Maroon 5

;clarissa paiva

now i stumbled across one of this lovely lady's more than amazing drawings a few years back now.
and i thought it was about time i checked up on her work and she is still producing work more glorious than ever!

her name. Clarissa Paiva.
she. creates beautiful display's of colour and movement in her work.
her. main focus is the female figure, portrayed in many colours, different media and on different types of material. 
to sum it up. crazy, lovely, beautiful, creative images to melt your heart.

the first image that i fell in love with and also used as my profile picture of facebook for a while. a compliment to her creatively and gorgeous talent.

my favourites from her website..

www.clarissapaiva.com

:lady notes

.. from time to time i have this urge to become creative and make fancy little pretty things, this is often because ive been flicking through a magazine (of frankie, i blame you) and think to myself 'i can make that'
im not sure if these thoughts sprout in my mind due to my jealousy of other people's creative talent or because at the moment i have no money (university blues) to pay for such lovely home made items, but when oh when will i have the time to attempt to make these precious little things, these thoughts always manage to 'kill my buzz'
i have good intentions to do so, i promise. my motivation is lacking.
i have comprised a small 'to do' list with a few ideas that, hopefully, i will one day accomplish..

- lace making
- sew together my own quilts
- draw/paint pretty pictures
- more to come...

*please tell me if you know any other fun, cute, pretty little things i can add to the list?

Northshore

my furry angel

~RIPLEY~

goodbye my love,

my angel on four legs.

you made my heart smile,

and sat with me as a cried.

you were a best friend,

more loyal than any before.

i love you more than you will ever know,

and miss you even more.

the tears keep falling,

you're not here any more to hold.

but your pain is gone now,

you'll always be in my heart.

rest in peace my beautiful girl

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the beginning of the end.
text books, note books, lectures and tutorials.
zambrero's, blackeby's, charlesworth nuts.
massages, sushi, movies, derby
birthday party, shopping, reading and shoes!
menchies, books, babysitting, baking.

photos...

happiness in a soft tortilla is exactly what this food is!

the beautiful new salon of the amazing Sarah

she is the best at relaxing massages and stocks a large selection of soy candles.

my favourite is the delovely signature scent!

the request of the group for derby...

mint chocolate brownie!

adelaide roller derby socks!

and ryans red footy socks

my little girl is growing up so fast.

Grace turned 3 this year!

Menchies!! frozen yoghurt.

my first taste of the stuff and im addicted,

i chose to add banana to mine...

and cookie dough and the flavour i chose was cake batter :S

babysitting this little guy is one of the best things ive done.

he is absolutely adorable and such a good sleeper :)

cannot resist the general trader or dymocks!

i have a new goal for this month.