wanting..

..what i cant have [like always]

but what do i want?
really.. deep down?
to be wanted.
to have someone to share my time with.
to cuddle.
to have that smell, his smell.
to be able to give my love to him.
to not be afraid.
to say i love you and mean it.
to hear i love you and trust it.
to make memories.
to take photos.
to have picnics.
to make love.
to hold him tight.
to read with.
to drink tea with.
to call him mine.
to have butterflies in my stomach.
to have my heart skip a beat.
to have him say goodnight,
and good morning the next day.
to be thought of.
to be missed.
to be loved.
to not feel lonely any more..