I've pushed the idea away for so long that's it's strange to open myself up to it.
The other played games for so long,
I know the maze off by heart.
I'm over whelmed.
I didn't think I was able to feel this way again.
(For another)
Excited. Giddy. Nervous. Wanting more but forcing myself to be patient. Craving the attention but not wanting to risk it all just yet.
(I'm damaged...
I thought it was impossible.)
You sit here next to me and I feel my heart beating out of my chest.
I wonder if you can tell.
I wonder after all these years something in you can rekindle.
Bring back the way you felt about me so long ago.
Has my ship sailed. Am I too late again?
I kept my distance because of a bet.
A silly bet..
But maybe now the timing is right?
I want to collide with you.
Crash into your arms and have you hold me.
Feel nothing but warmth.
Hear nothing but your heart beat.
I wonder how long until I can.
If it will be a fate that belongs to us.
Or wither with time instead of bloom with the spring.
Questions filling my mind.
Listless with their twisted answers.
Soon I keep telling myself, soon.
