ramblings

[more than you'll appreciate]

The negatives. The pain. They always seem to be so much easier to write about than love, and happiness. Why are we so caught up with the bad that we over look the good? Over analyse the good to pick out the bad and the unsure.
Pain is so easy to relate with, we all suffer at some point in our lives. We accept that we deserve it for some reason [something we did, something we said]
But we also laugh and love yet its harder to express [for me] those emotions.
Its nothing to be ashamed of, its to be celebrated. The reason for birthdays, valentines day and weddings. Yet we don't really flaunt our happiness, afraid of upsetting those who are not as happy. Why do we allow our negatives to consume our positives. Why is it ok to bring down other that are happy?
I'm embarrassed to express lust, happiness and such. Is it fear or rejection? Something that holds each and everyone of us back at some point.
The fear of pain, yet we freely let ourselves feel pain when we are too afraid [afraid to fall or hurt another] We leave ourselves wondering 'what if', feeling lonely and missing out. Regret. A horrible and often avoidable situation.. 
Another concern of my fear [social dynamics] they kill almost any freedom one wants to feel and embrace. Our worlds social dynamics are fucked, [fucked!]. I wish we could all say and do the things that are plastered over our blog's, tumblr, facebook and instagram. The social media to express and in turn be scrutinized over. The inspirational quotes and images that make us remember somewhere [deep down] to live our lives...
But do we actually act on this? Money, Courage, Motivation all inhibit us. 
I know I haven't , i shouldn't be so scared to say what i feel and what i want. Why follow the 'rules'? Why let the stigma of society consume us? Why?
Because humans are set in their ways, they are weak, they want to conform to majority. Social stigma will always stick, no matter how much we try and change the world's way of thinking. Why would you follow a minority with the chance of being outcast when its easier to follow suit of everyone else, even if its wrong. 
~ We can't say something without sounding too eager, if we do that you wont be interested, its the thrill of the chase isn't it? always playing games.
We cant be in love with the same sex, that's disgusting and not natural. 
You cant suffer from anything, you cant be sad, otherwise you are crazy or suicidal. you're weak!
Don't tell anyone anything, they will judge you.
You're not perfect, [no one is perfect] but you need to try and be perfect without acting like your are...
You can't live and love or you'll be branded a whore.
You can say how you feel about anything or you'll be a bitch. 
If you don't say anything you have no personality or thoughts of your own.
[so many words, so many meanings]
the worst labelling often used by those who feel threatened.
~You cant be friends with boys or you're a flirt. 
You can't have time to yourself; you're antisocial and have no friends. 
One thing after another. Life is hard.
The day we can be accepted for who we are the world will probably fall apart.
However we should embrace our positives and be able to share them not hide away from life.
Learn not to fear rejection and take that leap of faith.
One day? Maybe one day.