.its just that...

'i was just another promise that you couldn't keep'
                                                                   - i heard it's the softest thing ever;
                                                                     a day to remember.


i listen to this song, to the lyrics,
and i can relate to every word;
no matter how strong, wise and patient you think you are...
you can't always run escape from the 'bad things'.
you can't control other people;
their emotions,
their actions,
and especially the words that escape from their mouths to crush you,
to keep their own heads above water.
they are the ones that are in the wrong,
but will do everything within their power to blame you.


'just let me go for now ill be just fine, don't you know? don't you know?
now that im back on my own'


i lived without you once before,
i'm sure i can do it again.
i am back on my own and i'm smarter.
ill walk away from it all, time after time,
after being belittled, stared at, gossiped about, abused and blamed.
[for your wrong actions]
i have cried,
i have lost all faith in myself and pondered if your harsh words were true.
that if you could once speak highly of me and now speak so low of me...
what do i decipher as the truth and a lie?
i am having to deal with the repercussions of your mistakes,
all because you're not willing to.
[how is that fair]
when have i ever asked that of you?
is passing the blame really that easy to do,
than to take responsibility for your own actions.
[do you have a conscious?]
that method will only work for so long,
but you have taught me valuable lessons.
that friendship and love may not always be what it seems.


'i remember you, you took the easy way out when i gave you something to stand for'


turning and walking away may be easy for you,
but it was never easy for me.
i have seen and heard things that question my morals,
i did not judge or walk away nor speak ill of you because of such things.
yet you have the audacity to say i have no morals?
everyone has their own life experiences and make their own mistakes,
mine were not selfish or under minding.
[i guess that's what sets us apart]
it's unbelievable that i could call you a friend,
when i really had no idea who you are or what you could be.
i hope you don't hurt the ones that love you the most,
that trust you and believe in you.
maybe they don't know your past, have more faith,
or less belief in 'once a cheater, always a cheater?
you should remember what being with someone truly means.
[especially with that ring on your finger]


done and dusted.
love and peace.